Am doing pretty good!! LOL
This is the 16th...and I am writing again!! Not a normal thing to say the least!! I usually spip past many days..than write!! So this is pretty good for me~

Just finished reading the beginning portion of Midnight Sun....that was written on Edward's take~ Wow...that is all I can say!! I think Srephenie Meyer's needs to write this one for everyone!! The little that she has allowed us to read of that book, tells a whole lot about Edward...and how he was actually suffering through that first meeting of Bella~ She was so different...so confusing to him...because he was not able to read her mind...and because her scent was so strong to him...so compelling....breaking down all he had worked so hard to be....[different than other Vampires, one who did not feed upon humans]...Bella was so different to him...and it left him completely open to what he "could" be~
I do hope she writes this book~ It tells the story from a different angle and that angle needs to be out there for all of her readers.
Pluss...the story has to keep going!!
Now I sound almost addicted to it myself!! WOW!!!
I am in the 4th book now...and I am taking it so much slower than all the other books...not wanting it to come to an end!! The story is really that good!!

Dragging my thoughts away from Edward and Bella now!! LOL

Have got work today...dso this entry needs to be smaller~

I do hope that Tabby and her group had a wonderful time Sunday night at Ashley's!! I know that was an important investigation for them all. This morning I came across some more EVP's that I missed on my computer...now I have to figure out how to get them off to her!! I didn't want to miss any of them...my concern was that she DID get everything from past investigations. So I do feel bad about missing these...but honestly, I did not think I had missed any! Rats!!
I will get them to her one way or another...that I am sure of....I just hate it that I did not see them when I was doing the disks for her.

This week will be a short workweek for me!! I will not be working one of the days that I normally work, because I am going to the Nursing Home on Thursday to have Thanksgiving Dinner with my Mother. We all are I think~
Going to the Nursing Home has become a very hard thing for me of lately. When I do go there...I come away completely drained of all energy! It is so bad. No one seems to understand this...so I have given up trying to explain it to anyone.
It is all the death that I feel when I am there...and I have walked in the shoes of grief for such a long time now that getting around all that death seems to take my positive outlook and crush it something terrible! I have to rebuild my outlook everytime I go there. The rest of my family is not affected in this way. They are naturally affected by the saddness of that place, and the way my Mother is today...not at all what we want to remember of her...she was always so special to all of us. She still is you see...but now it is hard for any of us to see her this way.
For me though...it is bringing back to front view...death! And it is harder than the others know. I would not want them to have to feel the way I do to understand me...not at all. For them to understand would mean that they too, would have to walk in my shoes. Sometimes I think they understand a bit...because they know all that I have lost in this life. But it is easy for them to forget when they get tired of going there themselves~

I have to work on this dealing with that Nursing Home~
Something that I have to get past....something that I have to deal with. Afterall, my Mother is there and I to be able to visit her as often as I can.

It is really bad when death has surrounded a person...and going to a place where there is nothing but death. A problem to deal with. Everyday has new problems...but this one problem is something that has been with me a long time.
I will have to teach myself to not be so affected by the overwhelming death in that Nursing Home is all!

Well this is it for today!!!
Will try to hit in here again tomorrow!! That is a good thing for me....getting my thoughts out!! Instead of bottling them up and letting them become their own kind of monsters~
So tomorrow...I will return....I will try to return~~

Wow...it has been a little bit since I actually posted in here!! Have been in here a ton of times, but only to do different things...like add more stuff!!

Well I know it is the 15th of November...but I am still up from the 14th!! LOL
The 14th has always been a bit hard for me..since January 17th, 1989.
My youngest son was killed that day...he was only 13 years old and just the happiest little kid!! It was accidental...he went out to play with a friend, across the street, and the little boy had found some rifles in his closet...and when Chris finally got there, the boy was overly excited about his find! He pulled one out and wanted Chris to see it...but Chris had building a new Leggo set on his mind! In the process of trying to get my sons attention, the rifle the boy was holding went off and it did kill Chris, his best friend. So it goes without saying that every year since Chris has been gone, on the 14th of November is a bit hard for me still, because it is Chris' birthday...and this year he would have been 34 year old!!
This year though was a bit smoother for me...I am living with it all just fine.
We can't change what things have happened that are so final as death...so we have to learn to live with the ugly things in lives and just keep moving forward.

So I want to just say...Happy Birthday Chris...you are always with me and I love dearly and always will~

I actually had a very good day today...and Chris would be very proud of me! I know he would! I went to work...which I really do enjoy...and than towards the end of the evening, some very dear friends came to see me. It was just so good to see them again...have not seen them for a good while now...months and months~ Tabby and her husband, Michael, and their son Brandon~ Tabby and I were the Founders of Florida Ghost Chasers....and through many trials and error...I left the group, but thank goodness she kept going! They came to purchase my equipment...and we shared a lot of time at Denny's...laughing and just talking about so many things we had done before, and what all they are doing as a group now. Got to say...I am really very proud of her, she has really hung in there and that group is doing so many wonderful thing right now.
It was good to be able to just sit and chat with them again...like we use to do after every investigation...go have breakfast!! It was really so much fun!
It was so good to see them..and I hope we do it again and again and again!!
I do want her to keep me updated on the group because I just know that it is going to go far!! They are all very much into their work, and that is wonderful to me!!
I see only good things coming for them as a group.

Well it is late and I am going to make this one short!!! LOL
Will hit this again tommorrow though!! I hope!!
WEll hey it is tommorrow!! Later today than!! LOL
Till than........

Wow..this was an interesting day for me...in more ways than one!!

Really got to watch "twilight" last night and fell in love with it!! Oh my that is a great movie for sure!! But I love Vampires...like most women...many will not even admit it though!! I don't mind telling you though...
Sooooo...today I set out to find out how many movies are going to be made with this Twilight...and I think it will be 4!! New Moon is coming out in November...Nov.20th to be exact here!! I want to be there to see it at the movies this time...and buy the DVD later!!
I also spent a lot of th=ime scouting out the book on the whole thing...and there are 4...containing 2560 pages in all!!
I wanted that whole set!! No way around it!! And in Hardcover...because I am a Book Collector!!
But I want to read these first!!
So I found them at a great price in eBay this morning!! Started my day off right I think!! I bought them for certain!!

Than I sat here working on my artwork for a few hours...thinking about so many things~
How bad I have been to people I care about was one of my topics!! Normally I am not bad to anyone...more times than most...people are bad to me!! And I just go on...laugh about it and keep moving forward~
But really and truly...I have been not too nice to a few people that I do care about and that is really not good for me at all.
It ruins my whole outlook on myself...waste my energy on things not needed in my life....and is just really stupid on my part!!
So because I buying something in eBay...I went into my email account for my Pay Pal...and noticed there was an email in there from a person, who bought tickets for FGC's ParaCon but has not heard anything back from them yet and the ParaCon is TONIGHT!!!
So I emailed it all to Tabby. She needed to know about this. Through that email...I guess it led to me emailing something interesting that I also found in eBay...that they as a team really need. Not that they do not have a DVR system...but they could really use a new one...so I emailed that along to her also.
She did email me back...and after reading her emails and there were 2...I decided it was time to call an end to our problems!
Yes...these problems are stupid!!
We both were Founders of FGC....but I left on my own...because once I was booted from the group...and after asked to return and did...I really felt out of place anymore there.
I do care about them though...and that they do have investigations to do...and I talk to people everyday...about FGC and their work...and have had so many people ask me if there is a way that I might be able to contact that group still for an investigation.
I always say I will try...but never do try.
All of that has to stop!
I do care about many of people in that group...they were good people to me once...and are all still good people.
I like Tabby...we use to be really good friends....but it seems that friendships sometimes suffer needlessly.
I like Charles and his wife alot too...and I miss Michael sneaking up behind me and scaring the poop out of me!! LOL
We had some great times as a group...and that is a fact.
So I am putting the whole thing to rest....no more problems...I am so tired of problems.
I did email Tabby back to let her know that she has never been forgotten by me...she is and will remain a person I do consider a friend.
Same with Charles, Holly his wife, Hollyberry, Jim...and of course Lauren!!

This is my good leaf I am turning over today!
I am happy about it...and I can smile bigger now...because I have tried to make amends with Tabby.
I am a pretty happy person really....and having things out of wack are not good for me~
So I can go to bed tonight knowing I tried to make things right between all of us somehow.
My day has been very good today...and I am smiling about it right now, because I can sleep without feeling bad about anything.

Sometimes I wonder, with all I am doing...if I will ever get back in the swing of the Blog!! I try!!
So here I am right now!! Hurray!! A cheer for myself!!

Just recently bought a new computer...wow what a change for me!!! The computer nut of the family...and only using the oldest computer of all!!! I was so use to WindowsME, and now I am using Vista!! It is very different for me!! But got to say, the more I use it....the more I like it!!
Don't like all the security stuff on it though!! I am not so uptight with life that I worry about who is spying on me!! Don't have any money folks so who would want to spy on me?? I saved for 4 friggin' years to buy this new computer!! I get no money to spend from my husband...so I saved every Birthday gift and Christmas gift from my Dad....and now I have something that I bought myself...and dear hubby better not touch it!!!
So I have been spending a bundle of time just getting use to all the new things that Vista has on it!! In the process of this though...I came across my old links...so here I be!!! Back in my Blog!!
Cool!! I love it!!

People have told me that everything from my WindowsME computer, could never be put on this computer!!! WRONG!! I have everything traqnsferred already!! I am really lovin' this new machine!! At last ...at Last...I got something I really love...a new machine!!
I am a GEEK....and I love it!! Have loved computers ever since I first got one for Mother's Day from my oldest son, Mike...who told everyone that the worse mistake he ever made in his life, was buying his Mom her first computer!! Mike thought for real now....that that computer caused his Dad and me to go through a divorce!! A machine now!! I don't think that 25 years of marriage could be taken down by a machine!! But who knows....Mike might have been right!! I hope not though...that says next to nothing for his Dad...and I like to think of him as a very special person in my life....someone who cared about me...loved me...and would never be so shallow as to allow a dang machine to break our marriage up!
Nah!! I think Mike was sort of wrong there. I think his Dad just wanted to play with another woman. Maybe someone he thought to be perfect. But of course....we all kinow...there is no one who is perfect! I was just in his way...and the computer was new in the house...so why not blame the machine!!
Sounds really dumb to me....but hey....I don't know what is in the mind of others!! Including the man I was married to for so long.
Well hey...I Blogged today!! Hurray!!
That is a good start!!
Think about more to write later......tomorrow!!

Wow...
Long time no write for me!!
I did not think I was still here!!! It has been that long!!
So much has happened in my life since I was last here....nothing good...not for me...but alot has happened very bad....very very bad in fact.
A starting point would be a good idea right? Wrong! No one wants to know the sort of bad I am talking about! It is the sort of thing that when people read...they run!!! Faster than the normal speed of light no less!!
Oh well...may not post any of this horrible stuff today....am really wanting to see if this will Post anything at all!!1 Still not believing I am here still !!!
So am going to Blog on out for now!!